I just want to see you
When youre all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I cant escape
I love you till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You dont want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why dont you just take me
Where Ive never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When were caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
Im lost for words dont tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end 

and i wanna stop :D
that's the most important thing: the urge to stop. :)
and i know the causes: boredom and stress.
so probably, the next time i feel the urge, i'll keep myself busy or relax for a moment.
make me stop...

"si Lord talaga... di na mabiro..."
sabi nga nila.. hehe.. onga naman.. hehe
pero at least we know the He still listens to our prayers. :)
kakatuwa nga e. wala lang.. :D

i am finally a bonafide PAL employee.. yesh! hehe.. well, not until sunday. pero pareho na rin un. i don't like my id pic nga lang. ngeks. my make-up was too light, like i'm not wearing any. o well, tyaga tyaga. hehe..btw, PAL launched its new booking engine kanina. i heard meron mga reduced rates. d ko pa nachcheck. pa-book na kayo! hehehe. :D

sana maging busy na rin ako. hindi ung busy-busyhan lang paminsan. hehe. in fairness, busy na rin ako past weeks. hehe. mas marami na sakin pinapahandle na DBs. :) aaand!!! flex time na ko starting next pay period!! woohoo!! no more getting up at 5:30AM!!! ang saya.. :)

hay naku, puro narrations lang naman ata mailalagay ko dito.. anu ba... hmmm.. no reflections lately.. sana payagan ako i-avail agad leave ko on the 24th..hehehe..otherwise, LWOP nalang sya. haha.. 

Quotes lifted from Reader’s Digest, April 2007

 

I have found that there ain’t no surer way to find out whether you like people or hate them than to travel with them. –Mark Twain

 

Flattery is like chewing gum. Enjoy it, but don’t swallow it. –Hank Ketcham

 

A synonym is a word you use when you can’t spell the first word you thought of. –Burt Bacharach

 

Life asks us to make measurable progress in reasonable time. That’s why they make those Year Four chairs so small – so you won’t fit them at age 25. –Jim Rohn

namimiss ko na people... swear.. wala pa akong friends dito sa manila. huhuhu... you know naman me, so tamad lumabas. pero syempre, pag mejo sanay sanay na dito, y not. :p kinakatakot ko lang kasi pag uwi dito ng gabi na. e syempre magisa lang ako dito. hello, kakatakot kaya mag taxi ng mag-isa. nagcocommute nga ako ngayon kaya bahay-office-bahay ako always. hehe. ang corny. pano kasi, syempre matagal mag-commute. tapos nilalakad ko pa from lrt station hanggang dito sa bahay namin. hehe.. which takes about 15 mins. yesh.. that's my version of exercise. for those of you who still don't know, conditional ang pagkapasok ko sa pal. lapa. i was declared to be 10lbs overweight. holy shit. i have to lose 10lbs... hehe, ganun ako kabigat. hay naku, if i didn't want this job and the idea of losing weight, i would've just declined their offer. dba discrimination yun..pero jinustify naman nila. according to them, people who are overweight are more prone to illnesses. syempre they have to protect their medical benefits clause. ganda kasi talaga medical benefits ng pal. as in libre lahat. galing. hehehe... my only complaint is that 10lbs ang dapat kong i-lose, which, according to my very own bathroom scale, is not so true. mga 4lbs lang daw. anyway, ang laki ng discrepancy ng weighing scales namin. hehehe.. so far, i think i've lost 4 or 5lbs. haha.. success! i have 3 more months to lose the rest. sa monday magpapacheck ako kung meron nang improvement. hehe.. wish me luck, sana bumaba na talaga weight ko. :P
my car (dad's car..hehe), i don't plan to drive it here until cleared na ako sa medical ko. it's the walking that keeps my weight down. haha.. tska di ko carry ang mga driver dito! hanep sumingit! tska i think it's cheaper to commute than to fill my tank. saka na pag mayaman na ako. hahah.. tska feeling ko kelangan ko tlga ng kotse kasi sabi ng teammate ko, the dba team usually gets called upon during weird hours lalo na pag may problem. good luck magcommute pag 1am. haha..

so far, wala pa akong ginagawa ngayon, basa basa muna. naloloka na nga ako e. isang buwan na akong nagbabasa!! according to them, database admin is so critical kaya d pa nila ako papagalawin dahil probationary palang ako. sabi nga e pag naregularize na ako!! when i first heard that, i was like, o my ghaaad, magbabasa ako for 6 months!!! waaah!!! pero buti nalang they made an exception. usually daw talaga ilang months ang pinapalipas. ako, one month palang bibigyan na nila ng trabaho! yay!! ngayon lang ako nagkaron ng email ad. haha.. pero bad thing wala pa akong internet connection. malamang pag regular na ako tsaka ako kakabitan. haay, super strict. gusto nyo pumasok rin sa pal? hehehehe... ang dami kasing nagsi-alisan e. lumipad cla lahat papuntang singapore. talga naman mas maganda sa singapore dba? nakakasilaw ang pera. pero ako talaga, it seems like wala talaga akong balak lumayas ng pilipinas. wala lang. ever since talaga ayoko lang. kaya pala during my panel interview tinanong ako kung may balak ako magwork abroad. buti nalang wala talga ako balak or i'd be lying to them if only to get them to hire me.

i've read in the paper that the most requested song for a funeral service is james blunt's goodbye my lover. oh, that song is such a tearjerker. whenever i hear it, my tears just can't help but show themselves. hehe.
ok, so since my sister has long planned what to play for her funeral, gagayahin ko na rin nga. :D

1. goodbye my lover - james blunt
2. angels - robbie williams
3. will you wait for me - kavana
4. tears in heaven - eric clapton
5. one sweet day - boyz II men & mariah carey (te, pagaya ha)
6. give me a few more decades to think about many more. ü

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(2x)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(2x)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(2x)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Will You Wait for Me - Kavana
I need to talk with you again,
Why did you go away,
All our time together, just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd see,
a single day without you,
The things we take for granted we can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again,
Will I see you again...

Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I'll make it through,
If you wait for me.
And all the tears I cry,
No matter how hard I'll try.
They'll never bring you home to me,
Won't you wait for me in heaven.

Do you remember how it was,
when we never seemed to care.
The days went by so quickly,
Cos I thought you'd always be there.
And it's hard to let you go,
Though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated,
Cos we never said goodbye.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again
Will I see you again...

Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I'll know i'll make through
If you wait for me ( Won't you wait for me )
And all the tears I cry
No matter how hard I'll try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me
In heaven....

Cause I miss you so
And I need to know
Will you wait for me.

Angels - Robbie Williams
I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we´re grey and old
´cos I´ve been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I’m lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

when I’m feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know ill always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

Tears in Heaven - Eric Clapton
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

(instrumental)

Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven

One Sweet Day - Boyz II Men & Mariah Carey
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be togetherOne sweet day

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

:D now this is what i've been busy about these days... big ben's 1000pc puzzle!

WORKPLACE: Lanai
WORKSPACE: Mom's old rectangular table :p

day two (am):
now why would i start with day 2? because i forgot to document!! ha! and i just realized i had to take a snapshot so i can see my progress. those blue stuff at the top and the mountain at the side kept me busy all throughout day one. oh man, the pieces all looked the same!!

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day two (pm):
ok, so i've done little progress from a little after lunch to this time.. but hey, i wasn't at it the WHOLE day! i'm not that neurotic. hehe..

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day three:
day three was made possible with much help from my howe (thanks and i love you so much!!). he took care of that little drift wood with the snow on the left. i, on the other hand, kept myself busy with the lake. hey, that's no small thing. the pieces were all in the same color. it's hard to tell which part goes where. hehe, so much for trying to defend myself. hehehe..

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day four (am):
i've completed the lake above the wood. and i've finished a little part of the wood itself. the edges have been done as well. i get so bored easily. :D

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day four (pm):
not much progress you see.. pardon the flash on the first pic. the 2nd pic's a bit dark eh? anyway.. it's improving right? hehe...

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i'm looking forward to more dizzy eyes and backaches! hehe,,, no, seriously, it's fun!

have to guard the crib...

look away for a dramatic effect...

mistress n me. nagpictorial kmi last january. :p [7 mos.]

i'm turning 1 on the 28th!!! but i still act like a puppy...